Still Tuesday, June 2

It is now 6:30 PM.  We have had thunder bumpers, loud ones, and .45" of rain.  It has stopped raining and the aroma is glorious as the fresh smell of rain is always great.
I called Terry 3 times with no phone pick up and then about 5:00 she called.  She is indeed in rehab which I am so greatfull for.  On the phone she sounded very tired and maybe just a bit confused.  She did know where she was but at one time mentioned that Kim and Brian were there!!!  I really have nothing to share tonight.  Perhaps just a confession that I am getting somewhat worn down.  Of course my situation is NOTHING compared to Terry's time in the hospital etc. but oh my goodness I just feel tired, beaten down and kind of out of it.  I know and I trust that Terry is going to pull through and once again in the future we will be together and things will be fine BUT.  I just am tired.  Tired of the "waiting for the phone call",  tired of what Terry is going through, tired of questions about what the future will bring and the list goes on and on.  I feel that I should and I need to stand strong to be Terry's care giver when she comes home but at times I wonder if I can do that.  There are MANY projects around the house here that need to be addressed and I have done none of that.  Maybe tomorrow but I guess I have said that way way too many times.  I received Terry's medical papers from the month of April.  They define her care and the $$ involved.  We do have good insurance so I am not thinking we will have to pay a lot but for the month of April there are 22 pages and that does NOT even include the hospital items!  I scanned over them and then put them aside thinking I just can not deal with them now.  AND I don't think there were any "Pay now" kind of things but still the items were endless and and it made me sad.  Anyway I am going to try to put things aside and get a good nights sleep and maybe, just maybe, tomorrow the sun will come up and all will be good.