June 28, the last Sunday of June in 2020

TERRY

Terry and I had our 30 minutes visit yesterday.  We will see each other again today and then daughter Kim is coming into town so she will visit her mom Monday and Tuesday.  

Here we are on our walk Friday.  Yesterday, Saturday, they would not allow anyone out of the building so we met in the hallway outside of her unit.  I would say for being confined for 85 days she is pretty darn good.  Her weakness is getting better oh so slowly.  I felt she was in good spirits but I know and I can tell that her illness is wearing on her.  The good thing is they have great staff there and that is a good thing.  I will see her today and then not until Wednesday again.  

Terry is the one going though so much but I admit I am wearing down to some degree.  I am sure that MANY people experience serious illness of loved ones and here I am saying that I now KNOW that it can be and is very very difficult.  My heart aches for Terry as I see how weak her legs are.  My heart aches for Terry as I think of being confined for 85 and more days.  My heart aches when I think of what may go through her mind as she tries to use her legs and they just will not do what she wants.  My hearts just hurts so when I have to leave her after a visit and she is wheeled back into her room.  If only I could do more to help her and be with her.  BUT for sure it is one day at a time and in God's timing she will be well once again.  When she is well enough to come home it will be a glorious day.

I did get some work done yesterday.  Of course the garden was watered.  I got about 80% of the kitchen windows painted and then got some patch work done on the sidewalk in front.  There is more patch work to do but I ran out of energy and I did go see Terry.  Not sure about work as tomorrow is Sunday and really one should not work then.  I still remember growing up on the farm and we were different than almost everyone else.  NO work on Sunday was the rule.  If I remember it almost seemed like a rule that for Sunday dinner (noon meal) we HAD to have fried egg sandwiches with a side of dill pickle.  Funny how that seemed to be the rule but I have never read that in the Bible!

Terry's daughter Kim sent me some Kona coffee so I will have to grind that and have some soon.  That is the best coffee ever!  Just in case someone has never seen or tasted it!

This week will have some excitement as Aaron/Amy and kids will be in town.  Everyone will be over here Wednesday so that should be fun.  For me it will be Mom's potato salad along with burgers and hotdogs.  Cynthia said she will bring the dessert.  Aaron and Amy are bringing their homemade ice cream maker so that should be fun.

I did a twin bill AND a taste experiment with my breakfast eggs this morning.  One side had thick medium salsa and the other side had homemade pesto.  I would say each was the same as both hit it out of the park so I will have an important decision to make tomorrow, which one?  I did have a pork chop on the side.  I think my eating has been going well as I am now down almost 7 pounds.  Funny how those pounds go away pretty slowly but they can come back pretty fast.  I did go to Costco yesterday as I had finished my garden lettuce and needed more.  As many would know you can go to Costco and get lettuce for about 1/3 the price of a grocery store.  For Travis and I our first weigh in happens tomorrow.  The loser has to pay for a breakfast out.  I think when we go I had better make sure I have my wallet!!!  While I was doing some little mount of work yesterday afternoon Travis went on an 8+ mile walk.  How in the heck can a 73 year old man compete with that?

Oh my gosh how times have changed.  I walked past a couple at Costco yesterday and the lady had on kind of a sheer white T shirt with nothing underneath.  I did not dare take a second look as I do not indulge in porno.

No I need to call the rehab center and find out when would be the best time for me to visit Terry today.

I will close today with an admission.  Today I feel like I could be 73 and maybe even somewhat older.  I need not explain that.  I just feel pretty old and I feel that I am running on fumes.  I am hoping that those fumes will be the fuel for some energy in the near future.  Sometimes life just seems to get in the way of the sun coming up to a great day.  Perhaps I am alone in my feelings, which I hope I am.  AND as the hours and days go by I am sure the sun will appear in the eastern sky like a ball of energy once again.