Not sure this blog is posting but will try

 Here we are as we are nearing winter time.  It is 7:00 PM and the temp is 41, a bit chilly I would say.  I will try to catch up on what is happening in my life IF that is possible.  

+I admit I have forgotten how to do some of this stuff as the two stokes I have had left me forgetting how to do some things.  SO it is Audrey's 14 birthday today.  She is a wonderful young lady and I wish her the VERY best in the coming year. I tried to post a picture but forgot how to do it.

Well how about that I figured it out.  There she is maybe at the age of 2 or so.

*I am in St Paul in my house and am so so so wishing Terry was with me but that is not the case.  She is in FL and will soon be in GA near her daughter.  With my two strokes we got separated and when we will get back together is anybody's guess.  I miss her dearly.

• I have had two strokes and am NOT back to myself yet.  My left side is 100% but my right side is perhaps 85%.  I can do pretty much everything but have some tingling on an ongoing bases.  Will it get better, I am not sure.
• So my life is not what I would like it to be.  Terry is not with me.  I am in cold MN for the winter and NOT in Naples.  Which means I will not be playing tennis this winter and perhaps not any time in the future.  
• With may strokes the kids brought be to St. Paul and Terry is pretty much in bed so will be in an assisted living home in Peachtree city GA next week.  That is where her daughter lives.
• With my right hand not doing so well I am going to make this short BUT I promise to TRY to get in to blogging kind of on a regular schedule.  
• As for now I am kind of doing fine but I would so so like to be with Terry.  Perhaps that will happen again.
• So for now I hope all are doing well and I hope things work when I try to post this.

October 3, the first Monday of the month

 Here I am having did my 5 block block already and ready for what the day brings.  What the may be is perhaps a given.  Perhaps another walk, some more computer, some TV and then sitting and wondering what my life looks like in the future!!  I know:

*Our farm is way way back in the past and where our farm was is now a wheat field

*Devils Lake ND is only a memory even tho I lived there for 8 years and that is where the 3 boys were born.

So here I am I St. Paul.  Yes my 30 years of teaching here are way in the past, perhaps 15 years ago!!!

My beloved Gail is no more and I miss her greatly.

My wife Terry no I miss her as we have not been together for several weeks.  She is in FL and here I am in  Minn.

So on with my life of late

I am here in my house and a blessing is my son Travis is living with me.  Also daughter Cynthia is nearby and that is good.  

After the two strokes I am trying my best to rehab my physical being.  I do exercises every day and go on at least 2 walks a day.  Are they helping.  Well I would like to think they are but IF they are the progress is very very slow at best.  Yet I have no complains as I can do pretty much anything but do have some numbness in my left side.  It may be I have that to just keep my humble.!!   

The neighborhood has a way of bringing back many memories.  IF I sit at the computer in the early AM I kind of relive memories as I watch kids, big and small, walk to school.  The memories go all the way from walking to Wood Lake School which was a mile and a half to the big yellow bus coming and of course to sitting with special gals on the way home from football and basketball games!!!  The memories are many and for the most part GOOD.  Notice I said most part!  Of course one can NOT live on memories alone.  Live goes on and yes one needs to live for the "now" and the future and not on the past.  So what about the "now" and in the future?  Well for now Terry and I are 2000 miles apart and that is difficult but then life can be that way some times. The future is up in the air for sure.  It seems that Terry is holding her own and my health seems to be stable for now.  What tomorrow or next week or next month brings is anyones guess.  

So I choose to live one day at a time and be thankful for what is.  I know at the age of 75 and a history of 2 strokes the physical state I am in I give thanks as it is pretty good taken everything into consideration.  

I will leave things at this.  I may try to mow the lawn to get some of the leaves up today and then of course get my exercise in too.  Other than that I will take what comes and be thankful for what God has given me.  I am hoping family, friends and all are in good health and enjoying life as the days pass by.

Checking in again

 Well we are into November and I amWAY behind in on my blog. I will try to give an update on things here in St. Paul.

*As of today I am in St. Paul and Terry is in Naples.

*Terry is in an assisted living place with 24 hour care.  Terry needs help to get out of bed.  However she does eat well and seems to be doing OK.

As for me I have had two strokes.  At this time my left side is 100% and my right side is perhaps at 80% or better.  I can do all the daily things I need to do but I do have numbness on the right side.  

*I would like for us to be together but for now I am in MN and Terry is in FL. 

*The last time I talked to Terry's daughter Kim she did not give me any idea of when OR if Terry would travel to to be near Kim. in GA.

I guess that is enough for now.  I do hope everyone is doing well.

Carmen