Happy July 4th to all

TERRY

Terry called me this morning and I did spent a half hour with her yesterday afternoon.  It certainly is good for her to have the feeding tube out of her nose and I think the stomach one is more comfortable but she did say once in a while it seems sore.  I know that the stomach tube would not have made a difference yet but she sounds better.  I was out working on the lawn this morning and she called at 6:27.  She said she slept well last night and for breakfast this morning she is having blueberry pancakes with whip cream.  I will call her again this afternoon as being a holiday she has no therapy today and tomorrow being Sunday she said there is nothing then also.  I am guessing it may be a long two days for her and there are NO visitors on the weekends.

All six of my chokecherry syrup jars sealed but now I need to open one and taste.  I have never tasted bad chokecherry syrup BUT there is always a first and with me one never knows!

I have no plans for the day.  I may just stay close to the window AC unit and act like a veggie.  As I write it is 76 but very humid.  Supposed to get to 89 today and then stay hot for several days.  

Last Thursday and Friday

My trip was GOOD and NOT SO GOOD.  It consisted of eleven hours of driving alone and stops in Jamestown to visit brother Dave's wife Marlys as she had a couple of things of Daves to give me.  We had a nice visit and Marlys seems to be doing as good as one would expect.  Then I had an over night at Mary and Mark who live on the farm where Gail grew up.  We had a nice visit and Mary had a delicious meal.  

So I have covered the GOOD and now for the not so good.  This is not a good time for me to spend 11 hours alone in the car.  Too many things to think about and too many thoughts that run wild in the mind.  I do have an introduction to Sirius Radio so I could listen to that at times but I am not a huge listener fan so much of the time my mind was on many things, too much I would say!

• Of course much of the time I thought about Terry.  I thought about what I would be like if I were in bed for 91 days.  I thought about what goes through her mind as she tries to get stronger and get her legs to work better.  And of course there are 100+s of "what if" questions that one goes through.  I really did not need the time alone to go through some of the thoughts that I had but they were there and not so much fun
• And for sure there were many thoughts of brother Dave as I drove towards Jamestown.  I had planned a trip to Jamestown and thought I would be helping him clear out more things.  BUT!  I will say that the memories that I went through were all good but the bad was they were memories and not real life at this time.  Hard!
• I stopped in Fargo for gas and then I went into Costco to look for some things.  And guess what?  While there my mind even went back to my high school dating days as my one time girl friend lives in Fargo.  Now that is pretty bad.  I am not saying the memories are bad but really I need not go back to my high school days.
• I thought a lot about what Terry and I might be doing in 3 months, 6 months, a year etc.  So very much depends on Terry's recovery and at this time that is a huge question.  Can we live in this house in St. Paul?  Can Terry travel to Florida soon?  Will she ever get on a bike again?  The questions came faster than I could process them.
• While at the farm questions came to mind about how they will end up taking care of Grandma Saunder's estate.  It sounds like, at this time, things are pretty much up in the air.  My thought is at this time if one can own some land that is good as I think selling it is just a way of having money NOW and keeping the land is having something now and for many years.  BUT of course I have no say in it so it will happen the way they decide.  I wish I could dial back time to when we still had Dad's land but the past is past.
• So it was a long 11 hours.  It could probably be described as the good, the bad and the ugly.  It was nice to get home yesterday and then be able to spend some time with Terry.  Not nearly enough but some time.

So today we remember how blessed we are to live in a free country and we hope and pray that it stays that way forever.  With those words my FP is also gone.