The title has nothing to do with the picture! The picture is of the lake shore on Lake Tewaukon which is a half mile from where I grew up. Terry and I visited it last May as we made our trip up to SD, ND to Fargo for my aunt's funeral, to the Binde Farm, to Grandma Saunders and home again. Perhaps Lake Tewaukon had as much to to with my growing up as any non-person thing. It was there that I would bike up to take a bath after being in the field all day, it was there that brother Ronald would put in his boat and we would water ski (I should say brother in law John also did that), it was there that I learned to swim on my own, it was there that I would trek up to the high lake shore-make a little corral with tiny rocks and then throw the red and white bobber out to watch the perch pull it down. When that happened I would reel them in and gently place them in my "live well" of tiny rocks. Before I would go home I would open the gate by taking a rock away and watch them swim away. I would then gather my pole and worms, jump on my bike and ride the half mile home without touching the handle bars and as I leaned towards the house and coasted up to the front door I would usually think how life might be if I lived in town or some other place. I don't remember thinking I was deprived or anything but yet I know the solitude was not always appreciated. To me the lake was a source of life, a source of independence, a source of fun, a source of adventure and much more. Today it looks lonely like it is wanting someone to come be on its shores again. Most of the lake now is a refuge for wildlife and I am not sure how much "people activity" happens. I could also share much about the water adventures but will not today. I would say that the navy blue swim suit with the white strip around the legs--well I thought I looked pretty good in it!!!:)(: We will not go into the adolescence of the whole time.
I have come to a stop on the window work. These last few days have been a time in my life where I have felt worn down, kind of empty and without detail it has given me the desire to be lost for a while. Terry and I plan to head south mid week and that will be good. I am not ready from the point of preparing the house but my emotional state is so so ready. Warmer weather, distance from Niles ave and a time away from projects looks to inviting right now. Well the project thing will continue to some point as I have a couple of things I want to make in FL but they are not urgent, they are not fixing but rather more building and it should be fun.
Terry and I have spent some time in the last couple of days trying to decide what or how we should do things in terms of "we" now. What I am used to or what she is used to needs in some way to meld into what "we" are used to and that discussion will continue for some time I am sure. It is fun at times, exciting at times and sometimes it is kind of scary but of course it is all in the course of life which has a way of moving-changing and not stopping for anything or anyone.
I am going to try to get a little bit more done on the windows today and then wrap up that work for this fall. I would say that I will leave with the work on the interior of the 14 windows half done. Is that OK, well it has to be but it leaves me with a sense of failure to some degree.
Our weather has changed a bit and we are now in reality, temps in the mid 50's which is probably normal for the last half of October. The last many days has been so nice this cooler weather seems a bit cruel but of course it is MN and that is what we live for, right?
Enough
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